I had questions about what had happened, but I didn’t take time to ask God about it.
Like most Christians who encounter disappointment, I did nothing but accept failure as a puzzle I would figure out later, instead of seeking God about it right then.
One of the most important lessons God taught me concerning how faith works happened way back in 1993.
Two full years before I learned that lesson, I was driving home and was almost to our driveway at the old farmhouse when I saw police lights up ahead.
It was nothing new. I just assumed someone had been pulled over for speeding.
But as I came up on the police car and slowed down to pass it, something caught my attention. There on the side of the road was a beautiful eight-point buck. It had been hit by the other car that I had just seen pull away.
I pulled over and asked the police officer what he was going to do with the buck. Since my driveway was only about 400 yards down the road and I had kids to feed, I thought I would ask if I could have the deer. The police officer actually seemed relieved that he didn’t have to deal with the disposal of the deer.
Just before we parted ways, he shared with me that deer were hit on the roads often and, if I was interested, he would be happy to put my name on “The List.” It was a list of people the police would call to come and tag deer that had been hit on the roads.
That would be a great way to get some extra venison, I thought.
So, I got on the police list. And, within a few months, and before deer season ever even began that year, I had already butchered five
deer. My freezer was full of venison.
We were stocked up. So, quite frankly, when the season started, I wasn’t really that excited to go hunting. In fact, I went into the season without even praying or asking God for my deer. And I didn’t sow any seed either.
But I still went out on opening day and every day of the week-long gun season.
I hadn’t yet learned that it was a waste of time to go out without releasing faith.
I look back and realize how hardheaded I was. Every morning that week I got up and made the effort to hunt.
And got exactly what I had released my faith for—NOTHING.
Pay close attention to what my mind-set was at that time. I knew something was wrong. But since my freezer was already full, I wasn’t that concerned about it. But I clearly still wanted to have the victory of getting a deer myself.
I should’ve prayed and asked God what was going wrong, but I didn’t.
Jump ahead to the next season. I was confused about what had happened in 1991, but I still didn’t bother to pray and ask God about what had happened. Since I hadn’t received any calls yet about road-kill deer before the season started, Drenda and I prayed in agreement and sowed our seed for a buck.
After multiple attempts at getting a deer and some missed shots, I knew something was really wrong.
God had taught me so much about faith through hunting just a few years before. What was the problem?
I was fighting discouragement when the phone rang. It was the police department. They had a deer that had been hit nearly right in front of my driveway. There were the flashing lights outside our windows.
I was shocked.
When the officer asked me if I wanted the deer, I eagerly agreed to take it. It ended up being a plump button buck, and the meat was in perfect condition.
While I was bringing the deer back to the house, I remember thinking God had in fact blessed me with the deer Drenda and I had asked Him for. But I was confused on why it hadn’t come in the way I believed it would.
Or did it?
It wasn’t until the beginning of the 1993 season—a full TWO years later—that I truly sought God about the previous two seasons and asked Him what had happened.
I was out jogging and praying when it clearly came to me—the police list.
It was then that I realized that my confidence hadn’t been in God’s Word or in His Kingdom, but in “The List.”
The list was a backup plan.
I knew that if my faith in God didn’t come through with a deer, I could always get one from the police department.
Being on the list had affected my faith and divided my focus.
I had divided faith—two completely different visions of how to get my need met. I believed in my own method (the road-kill list), and yet I wanted to trust God to bring my deer through hunting.
I was wavering in where I placed my trust; and those two years,
I ended up receiving from where I had the most confidence—The List.
My faith had operated, but not how I had wanted it to.
The Bible says a man who is double-minded should expect to receive nothing from the Lord.
A good illustration of this principle is the person who asks God to meet a need and believes to pay cash for it, yet knows all along that if God doesn’t come through, he’ll just use a credit card to get the need met.
If you have a back-up plan, you’re not walking in faith.
Faith doesn’t need a back-up plan or a safety net.
And you’ll always find that your alternative plan is really the one you’re trusting.
As humans, we like to have everything in place so we feel secure. But God wants us to realize that there is no place more secure than resting in faith.
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